An article from Paulo Coelho‘s blog – Solitude is not the absence of love.
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Things I need to be reminded of on a fairly frequent basis … nicely done Belle Jar.
1. Assume that you are loved.
2. Assume that those who love you find some kind of value in you and the things you do.
3. Assume, however, that you don’t need to be valuable in order to be worthy of love.
4. Assume that there is no one out there keeping a tally of all of your failings, ready to throw it in your face when you’re either feeling too good or too awful about yourself.
5. Assume that if anyone actually is keeping a tally of all your failings, that act says more about them than it does about you.
6. Assume that you can’t make all of the people happy all of the time; maybe not even some of the people some of the time.
7. Assume that you will, over the course of your life, sometimes anger or disappoint the people you love.
8. Assume that…
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Monograms
Yet another one …

Approx 16cm square. Unipin pens, Zig Art and graphic pens and water wash, Gold Stickles and silver and gold UniBall metallic gel pens.
As always, this work belongs to me and no copying, distributing, altering or use in any way without written permission from myself.
Theta Mandala 3

Approx 19cm in diameter.
Worked on smooth, heavy cartridge paper using UniBall UniPin pens, Zig Art and Graphic Markers with a wash and tiny spots of a gold UniBall glitter pen (the inner raven has to have a little sparkle in every piece I create it seems … )
As always, this artwork was created by me and so the copyright is owned by me. No copying, sharing, using or altering in any way without my written permission.
Theta Mandala 1
This is approx. 7″ in diameter. It’s worked using UniBall Unipin pens, Caran D’Ache watersoluble coloured pencils and tiny amounts of gold paint and ink on heavy cartridge paper.
I’m not entirely sure that it works. I think I’ll have to step away from it for a while before evaluating it with fresh eyes.
In it’s defence, I must say I lost myself in the creativity of the process and it relaxed and soothed me and has let me practice some ideas.

This design started with the kind of infinity loop towards the top left. The loops coming from it eventually were seen as a letter ‘B’ and the word believe seemed to be the right one to put on this. Everything else grew, quite literally in some cases, from this point.
There are golden stars to wish upon and golden seeds and flowers and growth and sun and rain … and hope.
Approx. 6″ x 8″. The black lines were worked using Uni-Ball UniPin pens. Colour was applied using watercolours and gold watercolour paint. The paper is heavyweight cartridge.
As always, I am the owner of this creation and it may not be used, shared, distributed or altered in any kind of way without permission from me. Thank you.
Theta 3

Approx. A4 in size. The main outlines were worked using a black Letraset Promarker with an ultrafine nib. The infills were completed using a Uni-Ball Unipin pen. Colours added using Derwent Graphitint pencils and a water wash. Other shading done using a B pencil.
As always, I am the owner of this work and it may not be copied, distributed, altered in any way or used in any other way without my written permission.
Another snow day…
After going into work yesterday to a crazily icy site and no heating in the block I work in, snowfall overnight has resulted in some kind of common-sense.
This means that in a little while I get to go back to sleep for a while and keep warm safely at home and not having to brave roads practically closed by snow. The M4 is down to one lane. Many roads are closed or passable only with extreme care. I’ll also be keeping myself, and others, safe by not travelling along side-roads and the school-drive and ‘roads’ in school that aren’t exactly clear of snow/ice in my little Smartcar aka Deetoo (as in Smartoo-Deetoo).
I like snow as long as I can stay safe and warm inside and look out at it safely from my windows.
I do not like the sensation of slipping/sliding on snow in uncleared areas, nor do I like the fear of my car sliding into someone else’s. I do not like the sensation of slipping and sliding as I walk or drive, carefully, on compacted snow/ice. I do not enjoy the fear of falling over and hurting myself, which is always a distinct possibility with me as I can trip over thin air on dry, safe surfaces! The fall always hurts.
Last time I fell over, I ended up in A&E with a very painful foot. The foot wasn’t broken, luckily, but there was ‘soft tissue damage’ (i.e. ligaments/tendons) that took weeks to heal. Painful to walk for a couple of weeks it was, and I did not like that at all.
In Britain we are not geared up for snow. It happens for a few days a year, if that, and that does not justify the expense of gritters/ploughs/other snow-clearing equipment.
Years ago, people lived close to where they work and it was easy to get there by shanks’ pony. Nowadays, people live much further away from work. Many live a distance away from public transport and would need to use private transport to get to them, if they are running. It means that on days like today there may not be enough staff in school to look after the pupils safely.
Years ago, health and safety law wasn’t a big issue either nor did we have the ‘if there’s blame there’s a claim’ culture that we seem mired in.
I am absolutely sure that those who shout loudest about schools being closed in this weather would be the first to lay a claim if their little darling got hurt while walking around a site that had treacherously icy surfaces or because there weren’t enough staff to supervise the pupils who had attended school.
Don’t get me wrong here, health and safety of people is very important and is always the priority for me, as a science teacher, when planning lessons for my classes. It’s also a priority for me as I really do not like being hurt or damaged in any way, either physically, emotionally or mentally.
I do wish people would understand that the reason the school is closed is because we do not want any accidents on site, we want the pupils and staff to be safe while there and supervised properly too, and we want pupils and staff to get safely there and home again.
The school isn’t being closed because the teachers are lazy. We’re not lazy. Not by a long shot.
We work hard with the pupils in our care and ‘snow days’ mean that we have to work harder to make up the lost time so that the pupils make as much progress as possible, that they are not disadvantaged when they sit their exams, exams that are needed for their future.
We spend long hours after the end of the school day and at weekends and during school holidays marking work, preparing lessons, preparing resources, writing reports, filling in progress sheets, doing extra revision lessons for pupils after the end of the school day to ensure they do well in their exams, putting up displays of work, parents evenings, meetings, concerts, fund-raising events and so many other things that people who do not know a teacher personally and are able to see how their job encroaches on their personal life are unaware that we do or think it all somehow magically gets done by itself.
I try to manage my time effectively and to achieve a work-life balance. I remain late in school most days a week to mark/prepare work so I don’t bring it home with me, something I had to learn to do as I was a workaholic for many, many years, and I need to take care of my own mental and emotional health and well-being.
It’s not just the amount of work we do. There are other aspects to the job we do. We also have to deal with a lot of stuff, such as poor attitudes, bad behaviour, bullying, being aware of children who may be being abused and disclosures of abuse, as well as many other things that my not be easy to deal with.
There’s a lot of pleasure in the job, laughter and smiles with pupils through the day. It’s all to easy to get mired in the ‘bad stuff’ and forget how much good is done.
What we are not are babysitters, childcare. We care enough about your children to close the school for their safety as well as ours. We have a duty of care towards them. Respect our caring about them, don’t interpret it as laziness. Respect the fact that we follow health and safety laws and don’t ignore them, not just for the sake of the staff, but for the pupils too.
If we seem pleased about a day off, it’s simply because we know we can remain safe and well, we don’t have to face the hairy-scary journey to work, the difficult movement around the site nor the worry of if we’ll get home safely again at the end of the day.
Post inspection art fest
Well, it’s been snowing here. The school was closed today for pupils and staff and I can’t say that I’m sorry. It’s been a long, busy, hardworking and stressful week with the inspection going on. Few of us were seen – just 25 lessons from over 70 staff. The reporting back is delayed until next week due to the closure today, but at least the evidence collecting was done before the school closed so we won’t have to face this again for a while …
I am shattered. I have very mixed emotions about the inspection and the great sense of aloneness/loneliness I felt throughout it all. I found it hard to not put an enormous amount of pressure on myself to do more and more and more as others around me were doing more and more and more to dazzle and impress. No wonder everyone is exhausted and many looking haggard, increasingly so as the days went by.
I had little time for art, little time for myself. I’m exhausted today, teary, with the negative self-talk in full force at times.
I did manage to get a little art done. These two are my efforts. Both around 6″ x 8″ (15cm x 20cm) in size. One worked with Rotring pens, the other with an ultrafine Sharpie. Titles for them, ‘Flowing from the heart’ and ‘Flowing from the heart 2’.









