Releasing Chained Anger

ReleasingChainedAnger©Angela Porter 2012

Approx. 11″ x9″

Acrylic inks, technical drawing pens and a few dots of metallic gold ink…but not too many.

As I’ve been working on this today, I realised that it represents how years and years of anger and frustration have been trapped within me, thanks to my childhood upbringing and later life.  I’m learning about emotions at my more mature age, having suppressed them for so long in order to, basically, survive.

Even though the structure seems very ordered and controlled, that is how it always has been for me.  May the gods forbid that I should show a coarse or ugly display of temper or emotion!

There are cracks there though … and gradually (or not so if the emotional outbursts of the last couple of days are anything to go by) they will be released and healing can properly begin.

It’ll be worth it as I gradually become the person I’m supposed to be, rather than the one that was forced into the wrong sized, shaped and textured hole as a child, young adult, and beyond …

Searching for self-love

Searching for self-love 1©Angela Porter 2012

A teeny-tiny fussy little drawing at just 15cm x 15cm.  It’s worked in black fine line pen, Zig Art and Graphic Twins with water wash provide the colours and iridescent gold water colour paint provides the highlights.

Just the thing to keep my slightly busy now I’m feeling on the mend.

Angel – Finished

12″ x 8″.  Sakura Glaze pen for outline (grey used), Inktense pencils and water wash for colours, Cosmic Shimmer gold and silver watercolour paints for various bits and bobs.

Just finished this experiment.  The photo isn’t really all that good (I’ve said before, often, photography isn’t one of my skills, and the painting/drawing is too big to fit in my scanner).  The outlines are glossy and so have reflected the flash too much, and there are places where the metallic highlights haven’t shown up well, but you’ll get the idea.

I’m actually fairly pleased with this, especially when it is shrunk in size as all the imperfections I perceive disappear.

 

Rainy-day-Friday

It’s really raining heavily here at the moment.  I love the sound of the rain, and the wind, while I’m cwtched up warmly at home.  I went out around 8am to do my food shopping and was pleasantly surprised.  I expected people to be at the local Tesco’s in their droves, but it was really quite quiet.  Hurrah to that is all I can say! For a change, the process of shopping close to the bank holidays was relatively painless.

I finished the small piece of artwork above not long ago.  It is just the thing to brighten up the gloomy day.  It’s 17cm x 11cm and is worked in various media on white cartridge paper.  There’s metallic gold on various parts, but it hasn’t shown up in the scanning.

I’m now officially way past bone tired and I suspect that after having another mug of tea and a bite to eat I may go and join the cat in bed.

Oh the joys of being on the winter break!

Cornucopia 3

4″x8″ in size.  Black Rotring pens, Derwent Inktense pencils with water wash and metallic gold watercolour paint on cold pressed watercolour paper.

This was completed while taking a break from reading/researching/note-taking/getting my head around the 2000 word essay I need to write for my hypnotherapist training course by next Saturday.  I also need to transcribe my progressive muscle relaxation scripts too… as well as organise the people who’ve volunteered to be my guinea pigs during my training so that I can get some hours of practice logged.

The break was needed; as fascinating as the reading material is, as engrossed in it as I was, my brain was full, I’m still finding myself very tired after the tonsillitis this week and the upset tummy that I’ve had the last couple of days too.  I will be retiring to bed as soon as I’ve finished wittering here!

Cornucopia 2

Approx. 26cm x 19cm.

Black technical drawing pens, Inktense pencils with water wash, metallic gold watercolour paint and gold Uniball pen.

This has kept me busy the last four days while I’ve been off work with tonsillitis.

Lots of gold on this one, not that the scan shows it up well, but it works out nicely, I think, if a tad fussy and ornately.

Cornucopia

Approx. 15cm in diameter.  Rotring Rapidograph pens, Zig Art and Graphic pens with water wash, white Sakura Gelly Roll pen and Gold Uniball gel pen on cold pressed watercolour paper.

 

Cellular Flow

Approx. 15cm x 15cm
Technical drawing pen, Zig Art and Graphic pens with water wash, and Liquitex Gold Acrylic paint. Oh, and a few bits of white Sakura Gelly Roll.

Just trying something different, kind of. the patterns were inspired by photographs of microscopic images of cells. The gold outer with the patterns extended to give a square around the circle seemed the right thing to do.

Yet another …

…mandala or just circular piece of art.

15.5cm diameter.  0.3mm technical drawing pen, Zig Art and Graphic pens with water wash, and a white Sakura Gelly-Roll pen on cold-pressed watercolour paper.