Planting Seeds of Love – Work in Progress
This is a work in progress, and I’m not at all sure about it. I had the title first (I’m working on loving and accepting myself), then a mental image of what I wanted to do, but I’m not at all sure about what has resulted from it. Usually by this stage in a piece of art I know if it’s working or not, and this one … well I’m not at all sure. I have to complete the outlines, add textures/patterns and metallic/iridescent accents, but I’m not entirely sure I actually want to finish this one. I’m wondering how much the resistance to this piece of art comes from my lack of satisfaction with the art itself and how much comes from what it is representing – my inner work at this time… An interesting point to muse, eh?
I’ve had a lot of emotional turmoil in the past few weeks while I’ve been off work with laryngitis, much of it to do with allowing myself to love, respect and care for myself and to let go of various negative belief systems from the past. It’s also involved a change in my value system, and something that hasn’t been easy to do. The words/mental idea sprung up from this work, as I’ve already mentioned. It’s been a bit of a tough time, and sometimes it’s hard to find balance.
It’s also had an effect on my creativity. Instead of painting/drawing/sewing I’ve been lost in either reading or knitting and watching DVD after DVD. A positive from this is that I have created, after 30 years or so, a knitted throw/blanket – which has amazed me as I’ve always got bored with the process after a little while, but not this time. It isn’t a pretty thing, it’s very random in terms of colours and knitted patterns and crocheted squares, but it’s mine and I love it very much, mainly because it’s proven to me that I can persevere with a project such as this, and there is benefit for me in doing something that is simple, creative in a crafty way, and also rather meditative in nature.
I now have another blanket/throw on the go – and it’s certainly going to be ‘different’, but very much ‘me’.
Little Pretty 7April2012
This is a teenytiny piece of textile art, approx. 4.5cm x 4.5cm (1.75″x1.75″) that I completed yesterday. The silver japan threads were added during a sewing/craft afternoon at O’Callaghan’s Coffee House yesterday. The other stitches and beads were added later.
It will eventually be for sale on Etsy, when I work out what price to put on it, and whether to offer it framed or ready to frame … I dislike trying to put prices on my creations.
Why is that, I wonder? I think it’s linked to me still not quite believing my artwork has value, or that my ‘doodles’ are truly art. I have made the leap to the recognition that what I think of doodling is really my version of intuitive art, art that expresses who I really am, what I am inside, and the richness of that inner self and my love of colour and flow and swirl and abstract pattern.
I really do need to work on a statement of me as an artist that fully expresses who I am in terms of art and what my kind of art represents. Now that’s a scary thing to do as it will lay part of me bare -though those who read my art aright will already have sussed that part of me out!