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Tuesday Testing… Shading

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In my last blog, I mentioned I’d like to add shadows with alcohol markers on top of the Distress Ink background of a test drawing. This is the result!

I think it’s worked out well – what do you think?

Alcohol markers don’t cause the Distress Ink to move, they just add to the colour by adding a translucent layer. The texture of the Distress Ink background remains, which makes me happy.

The markers give a very distinct edge, even when I tried adding colour with a flicking motion. However, as I added texture patterns  using black and white pens, the jarring feel of the shadow edge softened…a LOT!

I love how the white glows. I think I’d like to use gold or silver ink as an alternative.

I did say I’d like to leave more open space in the design …it didn’t happen. It’s time for me to accept that whatever flows from my pen, plenty of open space or not, it’s what is meant to be. I can bring elements of the drawing to the front with white, and send others toward the back with shadow.

The hardest thing, though, is to remember these insights and remember them going forward.

Monday, Monday….

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It’s been a couple of weeks…again. Same old struggle with autistic burnout causing fatigue and limited brain bandwidth.

I have, however, been indulging in art, and this is my latest art. Abstract. Organic. Black and white pens on a colourful Distress Ink background.

The result in me? A feeling of exhaling stress, a smile, a mind and body more at ease. From the flow-ful nature of the lines that are a sensory delight. Of being in a meditative flow state. Of the delight and surprise at what appears on the page as I work intuitively in this meditative flow.

Adding base colours to the page really feels the right thing to do, moreso than adding colour to a black and white drawing. I can focus on the dark structural lines, the textures that add contrast,and the bright highlights.

I’m not sure if I need to add shadows; I’ll sit with this for a while and see how I feel. Part of me is fearful of messing it up, but part of me would like to add volume with shadow.

Maybe I’ll try out some alcohol marker shading on another drawing I feel less precious about; a drawing on a Distress Ink background too. Just to see what happens if I use grey or coloured markers to add shade. In fact, that seems like a darn good idea!

Off to draw some more stuff! This time so I can experiment with shading!

Rainy, grey Monday afternoon…

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It is damp and dismal here in the Valleys of South Wales, UK. There’s a misty/foggy feeling to the view from my window which hides much of the glorious autumnal colours. A wind waves branches and leaves and I’m grateful to be safe, dry and warm at home. A spotify playlist is gently playing through my Huawei Free Clips as gently potter around taking photos and panicking about what to write about today.

Let’s start with my current works in progress (WIPs)…

Yesterday I started on this one in a YouTube livestream. Just like what to write about in this blog, I didn’t have a clue what I was going to do! Well, apart from adding some distress inks to colour the white paper! Evergreen Bough, Peeled Paint and Aged Mahogany. Not as pale as they appear in the video/photo. But dark enough to ‘break’ the blank, white page.

The paper is half letter size and I’m using it in landscape; it’s much easier for me to use when videoing and I’m less likely to go out of view. I get so engrossed in the process of drawing I forget to check in still in frame. But hopefully I’m forgiven by the viewers.

All I wanted to do was to relax and enjoy the process of drawing and to try to limit myself to a small number of motifs and patterns. This is something I’d like to continue to do going forward…but who knows what I’m likely to do next. For now this works for me.

This one is something I’m working on away from the cameras. I’m using a letter-sized piece of paper and, again, a limited number of patterns/motifs. I’m using 0.5 and 0.3 Unipin fineliners as I find I really do like bolder lines. If I use finer pens it never feels right to me, and I think I have to learn to trust my own instincts and tastes a lot more.

It seems I’m also returning to not leaving much in the way of white space…but I think that’s more to do with the style of the art I’m creating.

What I do know now is that I’m feeling brain tired and need to nap before my meditation class this evening otherwise I’ll be good for nothing in leading the meditation.

Updates – 2nd November 2025

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Hello There!

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? The reason? I’ve been finding it difficult to manage my various autistic batteries viz. social, sensory, interoception difficulties and masking. That results in my mind ‘short circuiting’ and I find myself mentally tired, and unable to speak, listen or do much. When this happens, my mind and senses are just so tired that I need a lot of alone time, sleep, and activities that soothe me.

Add to the mix that menopause has hit and it has all intensified so much, especially with all the ways that the hormonal levels have changed.

So, I’ve not had the mental capacity to write blogs, post art or just do more than draw from time to time, listen to TV/Podcasts that don’t cause a drain on my resources, and sleep a lot. Oh, and StarDew Valley!

I’ve felt that I’m permanently on the edge of a shutdown, heading to a burnout all the time. I recover somewhat in a day or three, but then I end up draining the batteries again.

The odd thing, or perhaps not so odd thing, is that when I’m with people and and getting towards overwhelm, I’m discovering stims I never knew I had, particularly when I’m with people in person. That is interesting to me, as is the realisation they’re helping me cope with things so I can finish the event.

The hardest challenge for me is learning to manage my energy and remembering that ‘NO is a sentence’. One of my problems through life has been being a people-pleaser; another autistic trait. Using ‘no’ and not feeling guilty is really difficult, but I will get there… perhaps!

Three Pen and Ink Drawings

I read a book – “Draw Tiny and Make Great Art!” by Anna Tjalsma-Pogorzelec (@Licosmoss). It helped me to rediscover my love of drawing small motifs and patterns and weaving intricate drawings – the type of art that got me noticed and led to me working as an adult colouring book artist.

Over time, however, the requests from publishers was to be less intricate, larger motifs and characters, and though I enjoyed the work, I lost my connection with my love of intricacy.

I’ve rediscovered it and the three drawings at the top of this post are my latest versions. There’s a bit of creepy cute going on for Hallowe’en (one of my favourite times of the year!). But there’s also botanicals and my beloved arches that I don’t draw often now.

I smiled and giggled as I drew these drawings, something I’ve lost overtime as things got all too serious in some ways.

So, another thing I need to do is try to be true to myself as much as possible. Draw in ways that allow my arty heart to sing it’s song of creativity. Create work that makes me smile, and then share the joy with others.

This world needs more whimsy, smiles, and joy, and if my art contributes to that even just a smidgen then I’ve done something positive as an artist.

Inktober Tangles 2025

I did complete Inktober Tangles 2025! I did so in seven livestreams on YouTube. You can find the videos in the live section of my channel.

I really enjoyed the challenge, which I always seem to do as an exploration of each pattern, looking for variations and working with them.

I also have found that ‘going live’ is really good for me. I can get a video done when I have the mental/emotional energy and focus without the adding drain of editing and so on. It’s also nice to have some interaction with people who message in the chat during the livestream.

Creating content by livestreams isn’t as draining for me as you might think, given my comments above. I’m in my safe, quiet home. I’m essentially chatting about the art, things that are going through my mind as I draw. There’s not much noise going on around me (though at the moment noisy, bangy fireworks are going off…again) and I don’t get so drained. Even if I feel tired after the livestream, It’s a different kind of tiredness to interacting with people.

So, going forward with YouTube I’m going to focus on livestreams, as impromptu as they may be, as a way of creating content without draining me. Art is one of my passions, sharing my processes and lessons I have/am learning is too. Editing videos really is a real drudge and drain on my resources! Wellbeing boundary set!

Rounding off 2024

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First, let me tell you about the images above…

The first image is a collaborative piece of art between myself and my 7-year-old autistic niece, Heidi. She, like me, loves to draw, and she draws so many kinds of whimsical characters. And that’s not the only thing we have in common, as I’m also autistic. I was asked if I could use some of her characters in whimsical drawings. I was so proud to be asked, and so I did. The image is the result.

The main character is a Hedi design, which I interpreted as the dancing jelly bums at the top of the image.

I had a lot of fun drawing this image as I approached it differently than usual. I started with the central character, in which I inked the outline and then added colour using Promarkers. It’s not a perfect job as I’m not brilliant with adding colour to such large areas, but it’s unique, that’s for sure! Hedi was asked what colours to use for the bones, and she said “white” in a tone that brokered no disagreement!

After that, it was stream-of-consciousness and intuitive art. Mushrooms and curly fronds, as did the wave of flowers, seemed a natural addition.

Heidi’s mum, my niece Leone (don’t ask, my family genealogy is well complex!) sent me a couple more of Heidi’s drawings, and the bones had to be added behind the central character I shall name Eric until Heidi agrees or disagrees. So the bones went in. And on seeing Heidi’s dancing jelly beans, they inspired the dancing jelly bums in my drawing.

With each layer, I added colour before progressing. I found it so much less frustrating to add colour in this way. I find adding colour to one of my drawings tediously overwhelming. But breaking it up really helped me so much.

I can’t take credit for stumbling across this idea by myself. I’ve been watching a course on 21Draw by Hannah Bunzey. She works this way, one layer at a time, without any idea what to start with. I learned that visionary, stream-of-consciousness and intuitive methods are combined in my work. That creates a very personal response artistically. And for some reason, that made me feel so much better about my art.

It was lovely to put Heidi’s drawings into a landscape in this way. She loved the drawing, and the artwork will find its way to my niece Leone so it can be hung out of reach where Heidi can see it and hopefully inspire her as she grows and develops.

The image on the right is this year’s New Year colouring template for Angela Porter’s Colouring Book fans facebook group members.

A review of 2024

This’ll be quick. Maybe.

Art. Various health problems. More art. Lovely time spent with my close family and friends. Learning more about myself and finding I’m not broken but neurodivergent! That has been a kind of liberating experience! It does mean managing my time and energy levels in a different way, but I’ll get there I’m sure.

My Wishes for You and Yours

And with that, I wish you all the very best for this day and every day ahead of you. May you find little moments of contentment, wonder, love and joy in each and every day.

Where have I been?

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This video may explain ….

Yes, I got the dreaded lurgy last week and have been pretty much good for nothing other than coughing, croaking hoarsely, sleeping, aching, shivering and sweating, head aching and so on.

I’m still not free of the lurgy—yesterday’s test was positive—but I think I’m feeling a bit better, at least well enough to expend some energy on posting stuff on social media and drawing the silly thing for a quick video.

I also managed to sort out the Halloween colouring page for Angela Porter’s Coloring Book Fans Facebook group.

It’s an Angela-style creepy cute design which makes me smile. This isn’t the only one I drew before being hit by the lurgy.

recent art and thoughts

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The woes of social media…

I’ve been almost totally absent from social media for a while. For a few reasons, I’ve been finding it somewhat overwhelming. I’m seriously considering how many social media platforms I use, deciding which ones suit how I enjoy communicating, and how to sort this out. I’ve not made any decisions other than keeping my blogs, Curious Stops, and Tea Shops.

The realisation has dawned on me about how much time social media can suck from my day, but also how much energy. Also, to be honest, I really don’t get social media. I have the same problems interacting with people on social media as I do with humans in person! Ah, the wonders of neurospiciness! And I’m slowly working out how to balance my energy levels as I learn more about my neurospiciness.

Two YouTube videos and one livestream over Monday and Tuesday depleted my energy levels. I enjoyed creating the content for my YouTube channel, but I had no idea how much this affected me. I had to go back to sleep a couple of times between 7 a.m. and 11:30 a.m.

Postie saves the day with New Noodlers Ink!

It was only a door knock by my friendly postie that got me up and moving. The last time I saw my postie was last week when I was suffering an IBS flare-up with a migraine; I was feeling and looking more than a tad grim. He asked if I was feeling better. I said kind of but migraine-y, which was true. But two mugs of tea, some food and some pain killers has worked it’s magic.

I’m glad it did, as he had a parcel with a bottle of Noodlers Walnut ink for me. After some brunch, I had to clean out one of my TWISBI Eco fountain pens and fill it with this ink. The first try of the ink was disappointing as it looked pale orange-brown; I was hoping for a much richer colour. However, it darkened to a beautifully rich, red-brown colour as it dried. The ink is semi-bulletproof, which means it’s waterproof primarily, but some will dissolve in water. That’s something I want to try!

Oh, and there are more semi-bulletproof inks in the Noodlers range. The green-brown one intrigues me!

A flip-through of my Recent Art…

So, even though I’ve been absent from social media, including this blog, for a while, I’ve been enjoying creating different kinds of art.

One of the videos I released on YouTube was a flip-through of my recent art. This included my more abstract, twiddly, entangled art, creepy-cute drawings, and some whimsical people and animals inspired by the work of Danielle Donaldson.

All of the art I’ve produced I’ve enjoyed for various reasons. Learning how I can ‘overegg’ a drawing with too much texture/pattern and not enough open space is a lesson I have yet to learn.

Working with some of the lessons in Danielle Donaldson’s book The Art of Creative Watercolour is helping me better understand watercolour, colour mixing, and how I like to work with this medium.

I’ve enjoyed drawing ‘littles’ from the same book by Danielle – whimsical people, often with wild hair and fun clothes. Then, I tried drawing cute, whimsical critters in the same manner.

However, I’m so used to drawing with a fineliner pen that using pencil instead of pen to draw the characters and adding colour felt wrong. However, looking back on my sketchbook work, I realised I immensely like it! What a revelation!

So, I tried drawing an ‘illuminated letter’ with pencil and adding colour with soft, pastel watercolours. That still doesn’t feel ‘right’ to me. My love of Celtic, Anglo-Saxon and Medieval manuscripts doesn’t let me use just pencil for such work. That’s not a problem at all!

My creepy-cute drawings bring me joy and laughter as the characters appear on the page! Ink is the suitable medium for these, though I may try the Danielle Donaldson method out of curiosity at some point. I enjoy the more ‘cartoony’ feeling of the black fineliners, but I’m open to experimenting with a different style.

The creepy-cute critters have lent themselves to using alcohol markers and cross-hatching/textural patterns to bring them more to life. I’ve particularly enjoyed using more vintage colours for them.

I’ve made some choices with the creepy cuties that I regret in hindsight. Colour choice really can be an issue for me. Using a limited palette is the best way for me to work, though I sometimes forget that (and I rolled my eyes at myself as I typed that!).

I can’t say often enough that I love creepy cuties! Pure imagination and fun, and they bring out the pink and sparkly goth in me!

Exploring motifs based on a shape.

This was a livestream I did on YouTube. It’s a technique I love to do, and encourage viewers to draw along with me.

So, I begin with a shape or basic motif. Then, I work on variations of inner patterns, basic shapes, etc. I drew some variations in ink, left others with pencil lines, and added colour with watercolour pencils and a waterbrush. The brush was used to pick up colour from the tip of the pencils, allowing me to get delicate colours.

I managed to fill a page with variations in my A5 sketchbook. However, I didn’t get to add colour and details of highlights/shading to more than one and a half lines.

I really enjoy YouTube live streams. Interacting with people through live chat is a lot of fun. It’s also nice to know that people are joining in with me and finding inspiration in what I share, both the art and my words.

A Stylised Ammonite

The image at the top of this blog post was created in another YouTube video.

To start, looked back at the page full of the motifs created in the livestream mentioned above. My aim was to use it to make a pattern.

Now, I love ammonites. Indeed, spirals of all kinds have always fascinated me. There’s something so beautiful and joyful about drawing a spiral, or any curved line. Even my ‘straight lines’ have a softer feeling to them than those drawn with a ruler. Curvy seems to be a signature of my art! The imperfections are a manifestation of the way I draw, and I’m good with that. I’m human, not robot or AI!

Anyway, I started with a small ammonite, drawn with an 0.2 fineliner. I filled it with the Zentangle pattern Diva Dance. Diva Dance reminds me so much of the patterns you can see on shells, and it’s a pattern I love to use in various ways.

After that, I used a pencil to draw a guideline for an outer spiral. The chosen motif was repeated to fill the space and to create the pattern.

The next job was to add an underpainting. As I was completing work on the page of motifs, I’d used a Van Dyke Brown watercolour pencil to add shadows to some of the motifs. I loved this so much more than graphite and a tortillon, so I decided to use a burnt umber Inktense pencil to do similar here.

Inktense was chosen because it’s waterproof when dry. This was important as the paper I was using wasn’t watercolour paper.

The next step was to add colour. I decided to use reds, yellows, and pinky oranges for some of the motifs and turquoise and green for others. Complementary colours are one of my favourite ways of using colour. In this instance, I added the watercolour pencils to the paper and blended it with a waterbrush. I should have used a finer brush for the smaller and narrower areas. However, I wasn’t too worried if the colours ran or overspilled; this was more of a sketchbook page to try an idea out rather than a finished artwork.

I can have a tendency to hyperperfectionism. I’m learning that it’s okay not to be perfect in the art I create, that it’s OK to make mistakes or be a bit slapdash. I know I can re-draw the design, improve it, and choose how to add colour.

I often think that I’d be better off adding colour digitally—creating tradigitalart. That way, I can easily change my mistakes. That’s not something I can do on a livestream. But if I decide to redraw this design, I can scan it and colour it digitally.

Overall, I was pretty pleased with how it turned out. I’m painfully aware of all the icky bits of the artwork, but I remind myself that it’s not a finished work.

Closing thoughts

I need to consider and think about a lot of stuff. The biggie is not tiring myself out, so I’m good for nothing for several days. Social media is a constant bugbear for me. I prefer to create and explore art, knit, nap or read. Oh, and cook, eat and sleep and do all the other things that I have in my life.

I have to think about how to increase my income, too, trying to forget about my worries about AI art. So much is overwhelming, though. I will get there.

All I know, for now, is that I really enjoyed creating YouTube videos and doing a live stream. There was something energising about it, as well as tiring, in a good way.

I may be ‘missing for a couple of days, especially as I have something ‘people-y’ to do this evening; as lovely as it will be, it will exhaust me.

But for now I will sign off and do some drawing and get ready to pop out for a while this evening.

Illustrated Journal – 2 Feb 2023

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Illustrated Journaling

For a long while, I’ve been playing around with hand lettering, using my writing in art, and the idea of marrying together writing and drawing. Today, I started a new sketchbook dedicated to this idea and exploration. I woke up this morning with the concept clear in my head, and so I did!

A sketchbook is a perfect place to experiment and try things out. I’ve already got various notes on this page reflecting on what is working and what isn’t. And there’s some reflective journaling too. My handwriting is a mess. That Distress Ink-ed dot grid paper looks really grubby. The Inktense pencils and the use of a water brush may not have been a good idea on the sketchbook paper. However, it is a sketchbook. It’s not meant to be anything other than a place to explore, experiment, and unearth hidden thoughts and ideas.

The last paragraph had a lot of negatives in it. I do like the border, and this is something I’ll continue to do. The idea of collating notes onto a page intrigues me; even adding pockets and other things from junk journaling could be an idea. Places to store notes about ingredients and so on. I enjoy researching all kinds of things, including foods, ingredients, spices and condiments.

Food illustrations

What is new is me drawing food! I don’t know if I’ll ever draw a plate or bowl of food, but the ingredients or various elements interest me. So I’ve written a note to myself to see if I can make patterns or motifs for my more abstract, non-representational work from them.

I also must learn that colours can be imperfect; close enough is good enough! The ginger jam (more correctly, ginger preserve) was troublesome. But it’s good enough for now.

Soothing fraught emotions and thoughts

I’ve been relatively open with my mental and emotional health challenges, to a degree at least. And I thought it would be an excellent idea to combine that with food, and maybe more.

Art and food are two ways I can soothe and comfort myself. On good days, I’ll be adventurous with cooking. It may be a takeaway delivery or something quick and easy on bad days. On the in-between days, comforting food is the go-to, often more traditional recipes.

Cooking is always a challenge as a singleton. However, the motivation to cook and feed me wholesome and healthy food can be a considerable challenge, especially on my fraught and frazzled days.

Where will this lead?

I don’t know. I know it’s a personal project, but a friend and I have talked about collaborating on a project about cooking. So this may be a way of kicking the project off, even though I am still determining where it will go. If nothing else, it will give me a way to draw new and different things, explore various techniques, both in art and cooking, and reflect on all kinds of things. I’ll get to practice my handwriting and hand lettering as well. And perhaps work out how to create a pleasing layout!

This will, I trust, encourage me to take more care of myself in terms of nutrition. In addition, adding daily entries for at least one meal will hold me accountable.

A variety of meals/dishes will be required too and so will stop me from eating the same old things again and again! That’s a rut I can get stuck in. Also, if I find something I enjoy, I will eat it again and again, day after day, until I become sickened by it! That is not good either!

Am I overloading myself with projects?

I have a book to do for Creative Haven by the end of June. There are some self-published colouring books that I’d like to do too. Then there’s my creepy-cute monsters project. YouTube. Writing. And more!

I often can’t see the wood for the trees. Being able to prioritise has never been a strong skill of mine. However, I do need variety and options of what to work on. Otherwise, the work can become stale and uninspiring to me. And I can so easily get overwhelmed by the enormity of the task, or tasks, to be done. And then there’s the fear of failure, of not being good enough, that results in procrastination.

Also, I know that at the moment, my emotions and, thus, my mental state isn’t the best; new challenges in life outside of art and creativity. But that means that art and creativity are more important to me to help me calm, relax, get in the flow and give my mind and emotions a break!

I’m sure I’ll figure it out. I’m not one for schedules of work day by day and hour by hour. That may be something I need to look into.

But not now. Now I need a mega-big mug of good strong tea! I’m British (Welsh), and we think tea will solve everything!

With a little help from a friend…

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What’s going on here, then? Some of my cuties caught in action… Sometimes we all need the help of a friend to dispel the emotional storm clouds that gather. This little, cute, pink critter seems to be spreading lots of love and a helping hand and I’m sure he’d be happy if he made you smile too!

Tradigital art – drawn with a ‘hard’ Tombow Fudenosuke pen on SeaWhite of Brighton All Media paper and colour added digitally in Clip Studio Paint.