This has been another weekend of sheer laziness. All I’ve done, mostly, is sleep or read or just potter and potch around the place. All I can say is I must need this quiet time for whatever reason. I’m most probably emotionally exhausted after a long term and a long year at school, as well as from such a busy fortnight with things happening in the evening. No, not partying, but various classes and workshops and talks. It all tires one out. Perhaps this quiet time will mean that I recover sooner in the summer hols so that I can enjoy more of them.
Part of me is being hard on me for not using the time more productively, for not being busy, busy, busy. Part of me is patting myself on the back for listening to myself and taking time out. I wouldn’t sleep if I wasn’t tired or didn’t need it. I’d have the inspiration to create if I was fully charged. And if I catch up somewhat with myself I’ll have time in the summer hols to find the inspiration and lose myself in things that bring me pleasure.
I went to see this on Friday afternoon. It was good, but somehow anticlimactic. I can’t put my finger on it, perhaps it’s simply because the book had so much more in it, or my imagination is so much more vivid. Or maybe it’s because it’s come to an end, for now. I have a feeling we’ll be hearing more of the wizarding world in the future; I don’t think J K Rowling can keep away from it for much longer!
I’ve been reading these books by Lauren Kate. It took a while to get into Fallen, but since I have done so I’ve been engrossed by them (hence the weekend of reading!). I read Fallen in three or four days, Torment took just two days, and I’m stuck into Passion now. All I can say is I’d never thought I’d be reading and enjoying books that had angels in them! Wizards, witches, sorcerors, orcs, elves, fairies, nac-mac-feegles, and others yes, but angels? I’d recommend the books as a lovely escape with exciting and heart-wrenching moments, as well as moments of that perfect, romantic, sensual love that can only exist in dreams (I think – though if anyone can offer me hard proof that such a love exists, then please tell me; I’ve never experienced it!).
My artistic endeavours this week have centred around my latest sketchbook which has pages being filled with work inspired by a photograph of a leaf skeleton. I’m working with different media, developing shapes and patterns and colours and so on with the aim of producing some textile work. All I know is that I’m enjoying the time I get to spend on it, which isn’t enough really. It’s not long, though, until the long holidays…not long to go. I just need to remember to borrow back my books of inspiration, particularly “Drawn to Stitch” by Gwen Hedley.
I’ve been asked to create a piece of textile art similar to this one for someone at school. That’s a summer holiday project I’m sure! Other projects will come from my sketchbook work, I think. I’d also like to spend time trying to work out how to do landscapes…my way.
I’m considering joining Slimming World to kickstart myself into eating healthily, taking care of my body via the food I eat, and losing weight. Over the past couple of years my weight has steadily increased and I’m now where I was the summer after I finished with the long ago ex, which was some 13 years ago now. I’ll have to be incredibly brave and firm with myself to actually go to a meeting, and then incredibly strong and firm with myself afterwards … and forgiving should I lapse momentarily too. Believing I deserve to look after myself, treat myself well, be kind to myself is still a huge stumbling block for me.
I’m hoping that the work that has been done with me over the past three years or so will have done the equivalent of ctrl-alt-del and restarted the programs that are ‘me’ as they should run, well most of them; kind of like having the viruses removed, or at least the ones that have been identified.